Landslide: Constellations of Change

Lauren Nixon-Matney • May 4, 2025

Landslide: Constellations of Change

Fleetwood Mac: Landslide

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My Dad was my best friend—a brilliant Shaman with a beautiful soul, and a great dad who lived a life marked by pain and resilience. He passed away in 2021, and not a day goes by that I don’t think of him.



Many years ago, he played Landslide for me at a pivotal moment in both our lives. It was the live version where Stevie Nicks dedicated the song to her father, saying, “This is for you, Daddy.” Hearing those words felt like the song was speaking directly to my soul, as I watched my Dad grapple with pain, loss and his new reality rediscovering himself in sobriety.


We were sitting at the Hobbit Hole, an extended after-care housing unit, a name that made it sound more magical than it was. My Dad had been fighting his demons and finding his way back to the best version of himself. This was also the place and time in my story where I took my now-husband to meet my Dad for the first time—a moment that added layers of meaning to the song, one of loss, love, recovery and growth.


Landslide became more than a song. It was a mirror of our lives, the cracks we were trying to piece back together, and the hope that carried us forward. My Dad played it with a depth that only he could, his voice raw and trembling, filled with both sorrow and pride. He wasn’t just playing for me; he was playing for us—for our story, for his redemption, for the chance to be the father he wanted to be and, in so many ways, already was.


Landslide was our anthem of survival—a way of reminding both of us that even when the ground gives way beneath you, there’s something bigger above. His strength wasn’t just in enduring the pain, but in teaching me how to see the beauty in disaster, how to keep searching for stars even when the night feels endless.


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